Shiva represents the "self". And every problem we have is because the "corruption" of the self. How to solve that. Either by destruction or if you leave it that way it will be destroyed by the slow way. Through time. As time passes everything rots or dissolves and returns to "creation" or the "self" of the universe. Also past lives has their energy in them and the karma too and we need to also purify that and we can do that by "reexperiencing it" or... well. The mythical golden age female warrior of mine... Started to stab "babies" and other weird shit in my brain. Well it seems those things were the "ego" of my past lives. No cool past life journey times but I realized I don't fucking care. They all had their lives those times are gone and I want nothing else but to awaken asap (this was the realization that I had to arrive in Arhat to reclaim those energies). Also I can "resurrect" them by putting the same amount of energy back into them and retaking their "ego" from the "memories of the past" if I care that much. Also I had to realize that I continuously need to kill my "false ego" because i sometimes have "bad" thoughts that is the remains of the false ego. I need to become my "self" and everything else is meager compared to it. But the important part is to become the "self" and not the "false ego" or you will think you are killing yourself and you want to do everything to not let that happen. Then as the "self" you realize what a foolish little obstacle that was and crush it. But the important thing is you need to crush it on the "density" it was "happened" on. I just realized I want to write about this too because different emotions are different density... sorta. And maybe I have a different way of understanding densities currently. And it seems there is way too many. And every human "interaction" happens not just with 3d bodies but with the other density ones too. If you can "convince" the other densities their brain will follow it. And now I am consciously "clearing" everything around me with multiple density hands.
I forgot to mention. I revisited the "wand path" library (I just remembered it for "no reason"). The first time I was there there (5 years ago?) was a "barrier" (I also used my hands to pry it open and went in I looked at things had seen no one there and left.) but now it was a great door with a giant library with "mages" studying there. Well now that I am at a "higher density" I can see more. And I gravitated towards a "card" with a "king" from poker with all the colors radiating from it. Yeah it was the blueprint of the "Ultimate wand",,, I didn't realize how it works back then. It turns out all you have to do is reactivate all your bodies. Let energy flow through it and you ultimate mage. It's the most simple thing that was natural in the "age of gods".
I want to write more but as you can see I am currently sorta unable to figure out where should I start writing down what I want to say.
I want to say too many things and I am not even sure they make any sense to anyone
