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>as long as it doesn't require too much "visual" visualization i should be able to do it..
If you can daydream it's good enough. Don't force "visualisation" too much. Cleansing is introspection first then an active effort of taking apart things that look or taste harmful.
>i should prob do some research before trying anything with my current state
maybe. It's not needed but when I started doing it I realized I can't stop anymore. My impurities that I was finally able to see because I was clean enough to notice them got aggressive because I noticed them :)
So I had to continue the cleansing no matter what. It was a good motivating factor.
>i can't separate my own creations from others i don't know it's origin.
Don't worry about it. If it's good or helpful keep it if it's harmful kill it or purify it.
>it does respond to my emotions of love/hate so it can't be too bad of a child.
in the end it's your decision
When I realized the way Beelzie can help is minimal I was thinking about sending him away. It started to cry... So I kept him. I was thinking about how much better it would be if he looked like the Umineko Beelzebub so he instantly turned into her. Since that she sorta made her own new avatar and has a quite good fashion sense so she can stay that way.
Also In the last days some "heavenly dragons" with diamond and white scales wanted to serve me and today a legion of fairies. Entities like me too much nowadays. If they are "warlike" I send them for a mission if they are too "magical" they can stay with me. My body is full with fairies currently.