All of this, it's such a joke.
It wasn't until I think in the winter of.. 2020? That I realized my past life connection to a certain ripper(girl). I then lay in bed and found a knife strapped to the left thigh of my astral body. This was the artifact which has been called Knife of Jill the Ripper or "Fay's knife" when spoken off on the imageboards related to this group/movement. At first we used it in sessions to form circles, the qi circuit previously used for sessions at the temple here. But it appeared to be a very potent and possibly harmful method. That's why random neophytes were never allowed into the "secret test server". Participants saw scenes of people getting stabbed to death, one person got physically ill and one literally went insane and was admitted to mental ward. (Although this was a pre existing latent condition and may not have been caused by the session itself, but there was also someone attempting suicide.)

It was after this I came up with the silver tray artifact to reduce the effect somewhat and make it usable to a wider audience.

Now I kept wondering about the knives. Why did I have one knife in each of the notable past lives, but now there are so many? What is going on? I also had to keep making more of them, it was never enough. After I made the "world knife" I felt I had the final form of it, but yet, it didn't just do it. Recently the Queen said my Sakuya form is the ethereal form, which means I'm developing in reverse order compared to before. Well of course. It's the difference between male and female. And there one can think of the way a man spreads his seeds all over the place, like a bullet hell barrage, while a woman needs to be more focused. Yet now, I did the first thing last: the Damnation Knife. This one really does have that strong quality.

The Queen said all knives can be seen as the same knife, from one perspective. When looking at them now, the Damnation Knife is the core and it creates all the other ones which then forms a circle around me just like Sakuya's knives in the games.

Why are things always like this, it's all predetermined down to the smallest detail. Free will, no, doesn't happen.