>>2264 >Jewish kabbalah can only be taught to men after they turn 40 I didn't know this. Fuck. Now a lot of things are making sense.
>doesn't that mean the female side of the man has a masculine side as well It is true. There are a bunch of female-male ratio inbetweens. I had a weird shadow that overtook my right brain. I entered it and it was a military office with a well endowed long black haired tall female with SS style military uniform and with that military stick in her hand. I asked her. Did I create you? Her reply was. >Who else. Society??? Then she started to stomp on my body with her high heeled boots. After my "animus" was on the ground she took off her shoes and sat down. I was on the ground thinking >I really hope my anima didn't get infected by weird foot fetish animes Then I realized it's not about that. Her foot had a pressure point that I pressed and all her "pent up rage" went out with a scream like orgasm and an energy path from my right leg to my brain opened. It turns out her job was to beat the living shit out of my "lower" shadows and weak animus(es) so my "weaknesses" don't obsctruct me on the path. And other logistic functions. She was mostly my right brain because her "job" was to make me able to go through a high amount of information to "spot" the important part. She was the "anima" of my "frontline general" animus. She represented my will to overcome and organize my life in this "society". She is the "ideal" of all female leaders of our time. This was the reason why women with authority liked me. I never understood it. All my teachers that made people shit themselves liked me and while I have seen them berate people to their lowest point they never tried that with me. Never understood why they don't even consider making me feel like shit. (This applied only to women with authority. "Nice girls" sure liked to tell me their opinions how weird I am. Not that I mind it)
Also about that Kabbalah funfact. Our body has an "Implant". I had to destroy it. It looked like >pic related It makes your energy focus on the "fertility" of the other sex (boobs and ass) I realized where my preferences and fetishes are "stored" and removed them. Because that implant makes sure you do your "male duty" between the age of 16-40? sg like that. Because of that the "lower" lust type energies can't go "upward". Really complicates things when you realize you are constantly have sex in your own body and the energies are "dormant" because they see only the "flesh" (and lewd anime pictures)