>>2321
I relate to your experience a lot. Especially with my body not being my body part. There is a definite schism there, I've tried to bridge it but nothing works. "I" am not "me", so to speak.
>How dares it to be weak. I will feed it I will let it rest when it deserves it but it will do what it needs to do. It's my body after all.
I came to an opposite conclusion. If part of me experiences pain or weakness I view it as a good thing because that pain has unveiled the fact that that component is 'imperfect' or 'untranscendent' and thus deserves to be cut off from me. This is why I view pain and general negativity as benefic. It's like a testing ground for personal Truths. If Truth cracks when subjected to Perdition it is thus flawed and should be cut of and destroyed. Maybe this mentality is unhealthy but I've had good luck with it so far. If part of me experiences pain I respond by pumping negativity into it until it breaks and is destroyed.
>Pain is the feeling that reminds you that you are alive.
Like resistance, or fighting. Pain = Truths fighting against each other. If torture is accepted with no resistance then there's no pain, it's just cutting into meat. But why should a Truth be tied to meat?