Sunflower 02/09/2023 (Thu) 17:24 Id: c3332a No.2949 del
>>2947
I received a few signs that the Illuminati may be an unintegrated part of my shadow, so I was trying to integrate them via ingestion.
>it's oppressive energy and you got oppressed by it from inside
I'm pretty sure that's what happened. It felt like it was trying to push me in a direction that was diametrically opposed to my existence, and then lashing out when that was impossible. Something like that.
Decided last night try implanting a piece of myself into the core instead since that seemed safer and I was actually starting to get physically sick at the thought of trying to eat the thing again. It seemed to shift wavelengths to a more compatible direction. We'll see.
Interestingly though, the process of dealing with this gave me enough additional experience to figure out the exact issue that I was trying to resolve by eating it even though I wasn't actually successful in a technical sense. Funny how that works.