Sunflower 12/19/2021 (Sun) 23:30:21 Id: 972fd5 No.378 del
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>BO said that the spell in fact is long gone from us after we had made it and that we develop on our own now by our own effort

Well yes if I understood it that spell is just the base installer? And what it means to "made it" is still not clear so all I am counting as "making it" is the fact that I get new powers and I try to use my dreams and visions as a good sign but not as marker of success. Also yes I am using my own methods to advance on this path and not exactly the base version because I was not sure of it's effectiveness or if it would work on me properly so I put some newfound insights of it back then because I become immortal in this life no matter what because the shortness of life is really constricting and Immortality was one of my main goal since I learned what death is and the Vampire path/thinking sounded way too suited for me. It was like being offered free immortality samples on the street and I knew I had to start somewhere and the somewhere possibility No. 1 showed itself.

>As far as I'm concerned, the spell was only as real as you made it to be real

LITERALLY EVERY SPELL IS AS REAL AS YOU MAKE IT TO BE REAL THAT IS THE POINT YOU MAKE IT TO BE REAL. The only opposite when someone is using a spell so powerful you cannot deny it's realness but that is because YOU ACCEPT THAT AS REAL AND NOT USING YOUR MIND/WILL TO DENY IT. I had so much trouble overcoming this hurdle in my early psychic years ;_;. The global programming is so strong that it even made me forget my psychic feats that proved me all of this is real snapping back was an accident. That is my other problem with dying. Forgetting all, being dropped into a life that will make me busy again and not even notice that it's a futile hamster wheel I need to get out asap.

>Fundamentally it was still all your own effort
well yeah you need a really strong dominating spell that takes away your free will and turns you into an immortal no matter how lazy you are and I didn't even let this spell to do that my terms are always a collaboration and not a hit me harder daddy until I vampire.

But yeah you are right at the we need to find our own path part. And there are many paths many hells and many heavens. And yes I don't recommend this path to everyone because it's not a rosy one and I am not sure what is the main goal of our recruitment and yes not all vampires are nice swell fellows. So yeah only be here if you really want this but I had to start my path somewhere and I need to progress spiritually or I die from this world's stupidity (and this was my main view before covid now I am even more sure there is no other way)

Also in my dream where they announced that I "made it" with some other people too was a conference like thing and after it there was general chatting and I sorta made an ass of myself (so did the other dude) things escalated a little I made a really angry deal with him and the dream was adjourned because of it by someone who had authority over the whole thing so you know maybe it being not totally real/mattering is... yeah... you know... wouldn't be all bad