Now back to the Shinto realms that I am working with in the past weeks. After doing a quick cleansing connection kind of ritual with the Kitsune a bright rectangular portal appeared. As I went through it I have witnessed the many Shinto realms it is connecting. It was a sort of "this is more than I was expecting/asking for" thing so didn't know what to do with it first so I let my "whims" take me somewhere. First I appeared at some grassy mountain where I had an urge to grovel. I knew that feeling from before because many astral realms have that. If you are incompatible or don't have access to it you are unable to walk properly the most you can do is crawl slowly on the ground. While at high access levels you can fly or teleport. The groveling signified that the culture is "within me" already I just need to wait until the resigning deity accepts me. So I was waiting a little then as I could finally raise my head I noticed a giant Pagoda. 10+story high and most importantly every level of the building had a body of a different entity. Some of them were just faces while some of them had bodyparts too. It was kinda new. I encountered multi headed entities but not multi being buildings. I knew it is probably some levels of existence or checkpoints of the path so I waited what will happen now. Then the Pagoda turned into a giant female singular entity grabbed my body and swallowed me.
As I was in the "bottom" I felt the darkness around me and realized I am at the "lowest point" of my being. IRL the environment puts into our lowest point so we have to remember the situation we were in and "fix that".
With this I felt the shadows around me and I realized I can make my "negative feelings" take form as entities and "possess me".
Why would I want that you might ask. Well because with that I can finally "deal" with the "unseen" and "forgotten".
There was a perspective there:
>Death consumes life
We all know this already. All my issues and dormant illnesses started to get stronger. My posture turned into something horrible.
After a while the next realization came.
>Life consumes Death
The young eats the remains of the deceased old. The flesh we eat comes from dead animals and plants. When "life" starts to "rot" it's usually because some other organism started to "eat it". It was the realization of the ecosystem of things and most importantly how my "life body" eats my "death body".
The weird thing is that we empathize with out issues more than with our absolute perfection if we are at our lowest points. Because of that It feels like something is "destroying us". Because it does. It needs to be gradual and it needs to be understood. Life and Death consume each other and we need to realize how we are within and without the cycle. Understanding impermanence with its true depths takes time. And it's almost scary how my lower instincts accept my "death body" as "inevitable" while my "life body" as some foreign thing. I mean I know it is within me but some parts of my body are just "scared" of the change. They just need the reminder that they need to change so they can stay the same. It's funny how differently Trypper does this thing currently compared to me so I didn't want to really bring it up because it would have sounded as something confusing and incoherent because my lower emotions are still clouding my expression a little


And an other thing. The Shinto realms mostly correspond to the places on earth that Imperial Japan wanted to conquer. Made me wonder just how aware the Japanese Emperor might be of these places.