The massively overfilled notebook I've been using since 2020 which I considered a grimoire of everything I've done since, I felt it is now filled. What do I do? No one else can understand these notes without my guidance, and whatever knowledge I haven't internalized isn't worth anything.

So I decided the only way to turn this grimoire eternal is to burn it. It works with sigil activation, it must work with a collection of sigils and notes. I put some incense in it and lit it in the fireplace. When it was consumed beyond saving, I felt, heard and saw its form become internalized inside me. This is what it took to let go of the reliance on the material tool and eventually force myself to internalize what I still hadn't.