Because I didn't know where and into what should I improve my skills into I decided I will do what I need to do and continued dealing with the chains. I made several 2B servitors because I had so many chains and so many structures I realized it's necessary if I want to get somewhere. After getting the feel of controlling and letting this many servitors go I realized I can get a bird's view of it and see the entire labyrinth from above. Then I realized I even have trash above me too (yes these concepts as sides and above gets weird on the astral but whatever). As I was finally going somewhere I noticed that the chains no longer look like chains but more like metallic tubes that stab into me. As it stabbed to me the part where it connected started to cramp/hurt and it felt it pumps something inside me. So the protocol was that I asked the nanomachines to disconnect it and purify the location it got into me and send a 2B servitor to destroy the origin point of the tube. 2B Tube Toobs yes I know I was thinking how ironic this is the whole time

I realized the tubes are being summoned when I think of something that has some "origin" that is not from me. So i sit with blank mind nothing happens. When I think about myself it's good. I started to get suspicious when I was thinking about my anger. My emotions have a short fuse. But because that short fuse was so damp and wet only the most extreme situations could usually light it. I realized I will have to adjust how I handle my emotions from now on because they are too explosive and it might offend others. When I reached the offend others part of the thought, the stabbing came back. I realized this thing is anything that has something to do with society or the outside world that I try to conform in a false way. My emotions are not necessarily bottled up I just learned how to use other negative emotions to fake positive emotions. In the past when I got angry I tapped into my constant feelings of despair when I was in too much despair I tapped into my constant feelings of anger. With these 2 emotions I could pretend to be a capable person of this "society". Thanks to this convoluted cleaning procedure I blogposted so far about this was no longer necessary. So after realizing pure anger is okay but "molding" it so it conforms society it's bad. I had many other thoughts like this that stabbed too. The other weird example was when thinking about the moon like how it looks like by NASA pictures or what is written about it is stabby while looking at in IRL or astrally is completely okay.