Sunflower 01/21/2022 (Fri) 00:23:33 Id: 72d2a5 No.557 del
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>How do you even do things? Did you realize you want to be a proper spiritual practitioner and reach proper spiritual immortality?
I can't fully explain this to someone who started off with mundane thinking, because I never had it. When I was 2 years old I used to relate the opera singers on the car radio to God, thinking it was the voice of God coming through the person. I don't know how I knew the concept of what a God is, but I did. I also took religious holidays very seriously at kindergarten, and it all seamlessly fit in with old testament illustrated stories that were on the tv when I was 6. My first school teacher was of the traditional kind and would read the old testament and stories of Jesus to us in class. She also told us not to misuse prayer. It was all perfectly normal to me because I was aware of the angels right there, somewhere above me to the left. I could talk to them and I knew they heard me.
Sometime around 10-11 I realized other people weren't taking it seriously, and I really started detesting them for it. This lead me to look for another way that wasn't like the church, where people read the books and talk the talk, but doesn't believe in it. Realizing that they talk about eternal life, but aren't trying to achieve it, to me that was pathetic. I just couldn't listen to them or take other people seriously after that.
>So you think you know better than all scientists, you think you can solve eternal life and the meaning of life?
Is what they told me, with voices filled with sarcasm.
>Of course, I said, what does it matter if other people can't do it? I'm better than them.

I was provoked into doing what I do by hypocrites.