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A week ago I realized that "sloth" as a sin materializes in the body as a "shadow" that keeps the body in a "tension limbo" in a way the full body is unable to relax but merely feel "less tense" and the moment you think about doing something it "tenses" so it takes away your will power with it. I realized how I can slowly let all these parts relax and understand the way muscle "contracts" so it reaches a relaxed state because I realized the truth that "sloth" is not actually a "sin" but a mismanagement of energies because once your energies flow properly you are unable to sit on your butt "doing nothing" for extended amount of time like an ADHD child. Ofc that energy is needed to be refined further so they are not random impulses but yes...

My current longposting streaks are the symptom of that. Usually I feel too "lethargic" to longpost more than twice a day because I know even reading this is a pain.

These energies will settle and I will find the next step how to properly channel them. Like how I started doing a Seiza routine to strengthen my core muscles. Straining my whole body so I can "sit". I am truly the master of relaxation