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Yeah I could maybe get in to later since it's a very large thing but all the things in my last comment are linked an I didn't really outline it. On another related but different note there was basically this cute blond girl acting as my "core" in either an emotional or even existential sense. She was found by a physic. Because of this I didn't know which form is fitting if even any. I've always felt overall male but depending in whether the girl was my Anima or original human form the ideal form would change. An Anima can be integrated but if it's a deeper "truer" me then it's the outer layer(hyena and some other stuff between them) that should be integrated. There's even deeper layers than even the girl but it's as deep I think as any human side of me goes. Yesterday I might have accidently killed her by putting a thin Astral sword through my chest as the pain was getting too much.theres a lack of clarity sometimes caused by the suffocating feeling in my chest(where the girl if she was real would have existed in a tiny little realm surrounded by walls of "energy") I then had a brief reprief which caused a clarity which made me realize it's likely not possible to solve in the way everyone normally would by cleansing themselves.im 99 percent sure I did it. It's about input management. The input was too much to clean I'm a human body so I made a sun.maybe.at the very least I redirected the bad energies away from the chest which would help anyway since I have internal ways like a sun and such as well.