>>7660
>served as a messenger here unintentionally
He did this for me too. While for me his mindset was as simple as >>5019 this dude so I am not even sure if they are the same person or just the same mindwaves in a different body when I let my frustration get the better of me in the last thread last year I managed to create a "demon form". Back then I was in a Shinto pagoda in the "chamber of shadows/demons". In that chamber there was only darkness and as my eye got used to it I noticed shadows and demons and they were not possible to "kill" because they are an aspect of "me" some parts of myself that I do not recognize but they appear during interactions. The task of that meditation was to understand how my negative energies create these false personalities. I managed to "clear" that chamber by letting the demons dissipate but at the last thread I was so assmad because he was not a "unique dense mundane" but an entire egregoric mindset of mundane retardation that I had to overcome during the past 2 decades and I realized how much I hate them and as I finished my last post there one of the demon with red eyes appeared in my vision. Made me realize I have to go back meditating because my anger is not "helpful" but a mere "venting" process and nothing really more.
Truth is for me my anger was my "focus triangle". If I hate something then I want to defeat it and I spurred all my energies all my focus into a single point to achieve results. Back then it was necessary but now it's a hindrance because I have too much energies and this volatile temper is not just dangerous but almost childish. Funny how the current OP also lost his temper at the end of the thread for not getting answers that "conform" to his views.

So I too took a step back and went back to the chamber of shadows. It was clean for months now. There was a well of energies on the ground and 3 "vents" on the top leading into the 3 directions of the mind. As I went back a door opened and I arrived in the "chamber of the princess". She helped me connect to my mind that was cultivating swear words curses and unfiltered hate so I can autocurse everyone that makes me mad. All the "mantra" there were swearwords that I would say while hitting my limbs during work. Ridiculous. Consciously connecting to that place is hard because I didn't even realize that it's there. And it was straining 40% of my energies in my entire body. Once you get used to the pain it stops being registered as pain so you forget it.

>They think only of being the best
My family especially my mother drilling this "I need to be the best no matter what" mentality was the worst at my childhood. Whenever I realized that "competing" others is meaningless because if I add my own thinking I win but if I had to walk the same path the same thinking processes they have I would lose no matter what because I am not willing to completely become the "other person" nor I am willing to waste my abilities on these retardedly mundane pursuits.
>This leads to neither of them understanding what the other is thinking
Yeah... Kali Yuga is ripe with this mindset.