>>8955
In trying to solve the remaining karma here in this life, attached to the old life, I went to a diviner. I asked at the university study hall if they knew of one, then followed their directions. It was just up the street above the uni, two blocks ahead and then on the other end of a long building.

Walking inside I asked for a reading of the alignment of my current life, which path would be best in handling it? I was told to place my hands on a crystal ball, and the diviner then filled in my results on a chart.

It appears the path best suited for solving my current life's karma is
fallen - reverse shadow
a method where the shadow, kelipa, qliphoth, or sitra achra (the animal soul) is utilized as a storage container to gain more space to move in for your practice. The problem stems from having almost no such endurance to begin with, nowhere to deal with things. The lack of RAM again.

By reversing the shadow it can be used positively.

The way to get on this path in the school of magic is to learn "fire arrow", a battle field magic for controlling the effect of fire arrows, often practiced to gain the skill to handle fire, but rarely used practically. Its only real application is for a support magician to fine tune the flame of arrows fired by archers in a large scale combat situation.

Then after this has been mastered, to perform a self initiation into "fallen - reverse shadow" by studying a level 80 book from the Sage's library.

The book must be memorized and then a copy made from memory, bound in leather. Then came the catch:
Activation of the book and actual initiation for study, requires burning the book after soaking it in human blood, blood of your enemies.