I often see people say their only reason for not killing themselves is that their parents would be broken over it. whenever I've considered suicide over the years I always factored in just disappearing. Ensure your body is never identified after telling your family you're going to Alaska or something. It just doesn't seem like a big hold-up. If you're depressive you're probably making your parents depressed already they'd be better off if you're just lost to them, even if they have a suspicion you might have killed yourself. Don't depressive people already fantasize about going to live in the woods and stuff?