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I could be a devil, but it's not fulfilling. I understand civilization as it stands is the thin, white shell of a rotten egg just waiting to crumble. Many fall through the cracks, but I have a vested interest in perpetuating the lie and living it, and obligations to do so perhaps for the rest of this lifetime. So I can sit here and complain, puff out my chest and beat it, but ultimately society will hold together or it won't.

I've known dangerous criminal thugs, drug dealers, prostitutes, those addicted to meth, alcohol and otc. I saw the squalor they live in, I hung out with them. Some were old friends of friends, some were my own family. These people are tough, and inhumane in their ability to deal with other thugs. These are the type that could rob dealers and get away with it. These guys were white supremacists for the most part, I'm not, but they could really give a shit about politics or war, they just wouldn't allow disrespect from anyone, they were all about their own deal, on their own team. The really tough ones helped my girlfriend at the time stay out of trouble. She was on a whole other level. You could say they were heathens, savages and you'd be right, but they had that glorious prison mentality: you fuck with kids and you're dead. You'll beg for death. Partially because, like me, these guys were fucked with as kids. Mostly physical abuse and neglect but it doesn't matter. They were a lot of things, but they were not depraved. They were dangerous violent criminals with long records in some cases, but they weren't rapists. I respected that.

Why did they respect me? I'm large, strong, a pretty boy, intelligent, and most of all I did what none of them could do, handle the alpha female. She was fucking crazy and her family was connected.

In all, it's not a fun group if you want to stay out of prison. They supplement their income through crime, they like to brawl even amongst themselves, they're a pack of wolves, abused pitbulls, wild and dangerous. Gun lovers, but they didn't need guns. I don't have any guns. There are so many stories with those fools.

It was like fight club, these are the guys changing your tires, the ones serving you food in your favorite restaurant, the ones selling you insurance. I pitty anyone who thinks they could wage a land war here. The cities would fall immediately, but the resistance in the predominantly white countryside would crush any offensive. These people are poor, but they have stockpiles of guns and a nationalist mentality.

So you can keep your depraved, I'm holding on to the only redemptive people left in this country.