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>How does your aversion to getting touched go with grappling type martial arts?

I don't like people touching me without permission. Obviously I give permission to the sparring partner. I don't like it kind of like a pet peeve not like a retarded fear. But my first girlfriend really got me squirming because I wanted to give her permission and without exception but I really didn't want her touching me out of turn. I got over that eventually. I had a hard time experiencing a strong bond as everyone I had a strong bond with betrayed me or died. Even now it's like half broken. My last relationship breakup destroyed me but only in the way a spark can destroy a barn. I had a lot of pent up kindling. Now that I'm pure ash, it probably wouldn't bother me. Another reason not to have another relationship. I just think about it and it feels like a lot of work but no fun.

I'm not a runner, I hate running. I'm a slow swimmer because I don't like going underwater so my styles are slower than they could be. I could bike like a champion in my day though. I was always head of the pack especially on up-hills. I couldn't probably so that anymore because that was when I was skeletal thin. I trained a lot.

I'm so pumped to start the gym routine but I have summer projects. I'll start in August.