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*blog below*

saw her posting on twitter in 2024 under her pixilers account and found her funny and cute so followed. her vibe had a bit more bite to her, something I expected more from imageboards than twitter

I'd check her account at from time to time but by late 2025 I had checked out and was on another twt sphere thing. tho I would remember her from time to time, thinking I should catch up on her accounts but never bothered

fast forward to may 27th of this year, I saw vamp's viral post offering her condolences and checked katie's noidedjester account for the first time. saw the her final tweets, the shitfling in her replies, scrolled through a bit of her media tabs, offered a prayer in my head then went to town for drinks with mates

later I'm walking back home at too 12am, about 45 mins through an hour walk and the pin drops then I remember a post mentioning pixiliers and I get an eery feeling. my head was tipsy so I just concentrated on the tune I was listening too until I reached home. then would empty the tank and brush before going to sleep

next day I don't remember much, just confirming that noidedjester was the same katie I followed back in 2024. I didn't recognise her recent pics initially, lass had slimmed down considerably since 2024 and even 2025

well I was gutted tbh. I never got to check back on her before she passed, I felt indicted by my own procrastination which screwed me over yet again. so thought I'd better make up for lost time and scoured through the web trying to figure out wtf happened before ending up here

I've read peoples experiences with her and looked up mental health conditions she was supposedly diagnosed with to try and paint a coherent picture for myself I'm comfortable with. I'm doing it for my own curiosity I just wanna try and understand. still need to go through her twitter final months but knowing what it leads up too is a downer so I kick that can down the road