Looking back it seems as if my parents didn't care about my mental or physical health at all.
All they cared about was how things looked to other people and if anything would embarrass them.
And then they would get nasty and abusive if you were looking or acting in a way that would embarrass them in front of others, but they never helped you improve they just abused and threatened you about it.
It was all just so dumb and unnecessary. Abused and ruined for no good reason.