>>21824
When I was twelve I would be fucking kidding myself thinking I could get with these girls and wow them with my lack of performance.
In my mid-late teens I could impress them because I was older and attractive.
In my twenties I started to feel that looking at a girl that young was inappropriate but I wasn't "that" old and it was probably natural to want to look and it would go away as I got older.
I am now in my early thirties and while I cannot deny these girls are attractive, when I look at them all I feel is old and sad that my time has passed.

I feel like the centaur, raw animals instincts constantly in conflict with my cool reasoning. How can I want to fuck but not want to fuck at the same time? Would I be happier as Genghis Kahn or Mohammed, simply raping everything I like the look of or would I be happier becoming a eunuch and moving far away into the mountains to never to look upon a female again? Strange world.