Should you do this, should you succeed in this then you will finally understand for what you fight, what the true spirit of the European people is. For who you fight and more importantly why. You will find purpose beyond the mundane goal of surviving and finally understand what it means to be a son of Europa, to understand the greater meanings to strife and struggle for only in that can we find beauty and purpose. Mayhaps in this journey you would find the woman you were seeking and find even more purpose in starting a family, this I cannot say for certain of course but a Man with a purpose is a Man women will be attracted to. It is with this understanding of both your identity and yourself that you will find newfound strength to continue, to raise yourself up and fight on once more and know that you will not do so alone. I shall not lie, I feel like I could happily pass out at this moment, this chest infection is taking a nasty toll. But I do not leave a brother European stranded in a dark hour nor do any fellow sons of Europa who believe in our cause. We fight as one. We fight along side you in this dark hour for we understand the undertaking that is demanded of us in order to ensure our survival as a people.

At this time you are holding the compass but unable to read it, my role in this is to help you read to where the arrow points. It is pointing to where you desire most, to where your identity and thusly your greater purpose lay. I know how miserable these times are, I truly do. I know how it feels on dark nights when it is quiet with only the rain or silent snow for company. It is a miserable moment to reflect when you feel hollow, it feels like the darkness you have tried to keep at bay is slowly seeping into your soul and it takes all the strength you have not to weep at the prospect of such a miserable age in which you cannot find belonging, where all that lays before you is either hedonism or nihilism. But you are not alone in this. Your people are still here, still standing amidst the chaos and conflict of this time. We are all still here. You are lost because you do not know what you seek. In career, in life goals, you do not know where to go. You must go home and understand it, not permanently go there, just learn of your true spirit. Even if a mix of European blood like myself you must embrace all that constitutes the truth of your spirit. It is not in the material or the alien culture that you will find a place. It is home. It is home that you will find the path you seek most. It will not be easy or simple. It will be hard and take time. But you will understand your reason for being. That I can promise you.