You are not alone, as though you may feel. I must emphasise the importance of Will. Something all humans struggle to actualise fully, especially during these bleak times.

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You can not expect to find interesting or similar people when you are not engaging in activities which pique your own interest, and likewise will be unable to meet those like you and form bonds. I was in your exact situation. Jobs and qualifications I never wanted, lack of opportunities for my favourite activities in this concrete island, such as camping, hunting or hiking... and only a dwindling friend group of losers, quite frankly. Sometimes it is difficult to develop the Will to make a drastic change, when not in a healthy mental state. Doubt, and a stagnant atmosphere can impede your motivation, and so you must change your perspective.
But for example, temporarily leaving this country was immensely helpful - for my perspective, as I was able to prove that I could start a new life for myself, with dozens of like-minded friends, and plenty of activities to do that were able to remind me who I truly am. But I then had the realisation that 'white flight' and escapism is childish. All I needed to know was that there were places worth living for on this Earth and that I was a capable man. And so I returned home to be with my people, family and close friends - regardless of their downfalls, for I have a duty to them to be their Man of Action. So the first thing I will emphasise is that travel is something you should definitely aspire for, as it is a good exercise for developing the mind. Not in the white-girl-instagram way but more so the understanding your capabilities, exploring your unhindered pursuit of your genuine interests, etc.

Secondly, you talk about career. Do not fear taking a step back to take steps forward. I spent much time studying in acadamia, and now I am learning a trade. I faced the same worries about time, money, etc. but now I feel that it is better to bite the bullet so-to-speak than to prolong your inevitable calling any longer. I think subconsciously we all know what we want or have always wanted to be, we just need time to sift through the bullshit to once agan remember who we were before indoctrination.

A side point, consider the use of psychedelics for introspection into your subconscious, they have helped significantly, as a perspective shifter.

For physical self improvement, you need both a role model and a purpose, which are intertwined. You will not be properly motivated by looking up to muscular narcissists, for example. Look instead to the image of a strong, protective Father, or something akin to an Arno Breker statue. You must look to embrace your purpose as a Man (I assume), and subconsciously I think you know exactly the responsibilites and purpose one has. The same genetics of perhaps billions of the fittest Males are within you. So do not let doubt cripple you atleast.