So, let´s... eerm, get started with an eclectic essay that I don´t know where I should begin. I am trying to set this out but I think that I will have to sort of improvise along the way and try to...erm, gather all the things and topics that I want to expose over here and try to make out this personal project.

And now, one would raise a question. The reader would get confused by reading this, right? How is it possible that one implies that, after making a thread for my personal claim of doing a project for me, I am exposing a personal side of me all over again?

Well, the thing is...being raised in a very twisted and difficult environment that would take me long posts and paragraphs for explaining this context, I will try to keep it MLP related all the way through.

I stated that /endpone/ was my...personal project and I had implied at first during its growth...that fame and popularity would solve all the things for a means to an end. I thought that it would get rid of the problems and perhaps from the outside, I would have attempted to feel better by lying myself (and the others) that self-servicing independently and just thinking of my own personal interest...it would have solved all these issues, all my thoughts that I have been keeping inside (yet along I have been unable to hide them).

This essay might not be all that enjoyable to read (even though Bridgefag and two more users have praised a twisted episode spotlight such as the one that I did for A Health of Information....which I deeply appreciate and personally didn´t expect to receive from it so bluntly). However, that doesn´t mean that carrying out a project like this makes me look like a good person or someone that you would look up to. It doesn´t work that way...

I will spoiler something for all of you: being outside the leadership/creative direction for this board throughout this last year.... has turned out to be the healthiest choice and perhaps, my energies and my emotional burnout has driven me to leave this project aside. Mostly because I have had to accept that this wasn´t personal and other users would have to define this board instead. I have wanted to take control of the thing but I have been assuming that I cannot handle that role (either by personal circumstance or just pure burnout and mental exhaustion).

It´s a matter of acceptance and I personally don´t want to continue the path that I was going for back in 2018. I have had to take a rest from all of this even though I have always been lurking. So, this essay kind of blends between a mental thoughtful exercise and a project that you deserve to know and I am affirming it in public.

Let´s embark onto the matter and you will see...the actual project that I have been (partly) concealing since January.