At the end of the day, my personal interest has sort of become a collective one that is reinforced by sharing it with other people. Does it mean that this leverage was selfless or selfish? Does all of this make me look a hero or as a villain? I just…don´t know, time will judge my actions eventually.

I have been doing all of this so I would partly contribute to gathering more material for /endpone/ because otherwise, I would fall short for delivering material on this general. In a way, I have been indirectly influencing on the board without actively taking part on it. I have ended up turning into a lurker because of the burnout that I have been holding for years. Taking the leadership by accident and leading the way for others is difficult and I have stayed away from the public eye (even if I remain mostly anonymous here)

This burnout has led me to see other things with a different perspective, enjoy my free time with my loved ones and talking intensively with them. I have resorted to them because I have been going through a very difficult (yet revealing) part of my life that has turned around my vision about many things inside my family and thus, the last thing that this board needs to see is an entire blog of a pure rollercoaster that I have been facing from the inside and among the familiar circles (changing radically overnight at some points). I have resorted to very close people so I would receive deep mental and emotional help for going through everything that has occurred to me for these last few months.

However, I have moved from one burnout to another burnout…and I have also run out of content to upload. There might be new pictures or underground pics that remain hidden out there but I have registered a good portion of them.

This is why I have respected the choices of people leaving and getting into this ride. I have to respect their personal choices in the same way that others respect mine. In this case, I have stayed away from the public eye because I have had nothing interesting to say nor offer and hearing about my complaints/personal issues is not a proper matter of interest for this board to be honest.

This is what one would call it as creative bankruptcy. More like I haven´t had the right mood for doing so and even before all this series of events, I displayed some serious signs of abandonment (for example, I struggled to find motivations before embarking on season 9 reviews back in 2019 or the episode spotlights that served as a way to provisionally provide some sort of activity around here)

I should make very clear that I have needed to find my way to disconnect from this and even, stay a little bit healthy by rediscovering my mentality and how I should approach things in the future. I have wanted to share this essay right here because a couple of users wondered about my existence around here and they deserve to know about me and even provide something in return like this…

But /endpone/…is something else that I cannot consider as something personal but rather,as a ride that stays alive on its own. As a consequence, I have presented my own personal project (or small contribution) that I have been delivering on my own in silence, with intended obscurity in order to make it work. For the first time, I reveal here what people might have suspected by checking the boorus and you are the fortunate ones to be aware about this.

This time, I don´t have to reveal who I am…because I have a gallery dedicated to them and I have uploaded a few pics on Derpi.