I have trouble accepting it tho. Just leave and rule over my "realm" or suffer in a shitty one until I rule over it again? When do you accept something as real? When you can control it or when you cannot... I still don't know where I want to go. I am trying to increase my sensitivity and figure out what "way" I "want" to "suffer" and what I want as a motivation force or what should make me even go forward. Being alone is not fun. Being alone with people around you is even less fun. I should meditate on this and not post here I know. This is just my way of slowly letting go of the internet.
The media and the internet was my greatest inspiration as I grew up. Takes time to let it go.
This thought process always makes me remember the Flan wants to die manga. She realizes she just doesn't. Then goes home.
>>2311 >I saw some winged female entities in it. They seemed excited to see me, and one of them gave me something to drink. What are they? Real hard to explain. I didn't met them this way. Guess they can go there on their own now.
