For a story I'm writing, I need to get a gasp of how new blood is recruited. Stories appreciated

It is with much love and hope that I come to you on this chan.
as a fan of this cultural event I introduce myself to you:.
my name is *lich and for now that's all you need to know;
this name will be very recurrent through the chans until my story is in the past like all others, in the past, but never forgotten. After a lot of seeing my life's dream being mocked on the internet and treated as a joke or something bad made me uneasy, they don't like it when I do it anyway.
my will, as well as eric and dylan's (and other big names like mr anime, salvador ramos etc.) is something natural, almost like a virus that spreads through many young people. some prefer to put forward a false idea of this natural will in order to promote an ideal or perhaps to justify their act.
I say for all of them, as one of them, that there is no ideal, but only being free and truly happy. I will never lie about my wishes.
I did (will do) this massacre as an expression of my own will and dream, not because of a racial, prejudiced, amchista issue, etc. I will because it is my goal as well as yours to buy a house and have a family.
That said, in the future I will tell you more about who I am but for now I need help as soon as possible.
anything helps, a contact from someone, tips on how to acquire weapons and equipment, tips in general and if I need a mentorship.
I will of course notify you as a reward for your investment in me.

see you soon, folks.

We're taking this over lads!