>>510916
Хуйня. Буду брать строго пикрл.

>>5232

Yello. Take a look at my schizo slideshow (my first ever time using a video editor). I tried. At least it tells a simple story (the recreation of)...
I discovered pornography at eight if not earlier, delved deeper and deeper until I grew up to loathe it. Completely losing the belief in God had crushed my worldview but not my lively spirit and I dunked my head in nihilism and emotional numbness. For the first time in a long time, such long time you could name eternity, the product of years of dissociation ceases to exist. The theme of the story builds upon the juxtaposition of a soul-draining routine and intense infatuation, which subsequently gets taken away, along with the myriad of strong feelings it entails, in particular hate for all the possible and imaginary (delusional) forces hostile to love.
I'd make a better one, but unfortunately so much shit is banned in here so I can't even download the MEGAs. It's only a matter of time that they introduce while lists. Any editing tips? I welcome you to reupload the packs to yandex fucking disk.
I'll try and quit the para-social smoking now, although it constituted the absolute majority of joy in my small World. I've watched Huberman's video on nicotine and it said that nicotine gum is virtually harmless besides injuring neuroplasticity (something you keep until 40 or something) and shrinking your dick. He also said it improves cognitive function in people with schizophrenia so I'll pop one or two a month (4mg each) just for the fun of it.

Edit leitmotif: apathy cure.

How fragile are you lot? You've had tremendous impact on her, and now it's just an echochamber of hate and despair that you subsist off of. There's different kinds of hope and forgiveness. And time after time all I can see in these threads is something like "I've 'put up' with this reality for long enough, farewell." Why? I no longer operate with the term guilt, I cannot blame anything but statistics, for which I and you are partly responsible. I just want to help people now. You have free will too, don't you? Put it to use.

I also faintly remember there being an "All I need" by Radiohead edit. It'd be much appreciated if someone shared it.

- Reverence.