07/18/2020 (Sat) 22:21:16
The further I go down the path of learning the truths of our universe and the world around us, the more isolated I feel. I was fine with it at first, but now I'm becoming separated even from close family. I think I deeply saddened my father when we talked about YHWH and Christianity. Maybe I took advantage of the kindred friendship I had with my roommate. I didn't truly understand just how valuable it was until we parted. He was the only person I could truly discuss with about any topic without being labeled a "racist" or weirdo. I know I could stop reading, but there's no coming back from the truth. You can't just unlearn or ignore the patterns you see in society or the things you've read. Nor do I actually want to stop pursuing esoteric truths and knowledge. I guess this is the first time I've truly felt alone in years.