>>57531
Antonina did her transition because she was not masculine enough, so she couldn't function as a man. That is the core reason. The fact she failed, was because she haven't got support in her transition. I.e. no proper HRT, family stealing the money for her FFS and other LGBT bullying her. The only person who haven't rejected her was me, and I'm myself totally fucked up in the head and think about offing myself for the same reason she did (I get rejected by everyone). She ended up dividing people into schizos like her and normies, so she had a few schizo ts as friends. Had she got the support, she would be a success story, who found love. I.e. it is much easier to find a girlfriend when you are not paranoid about people bullying you, have many friends to go out with and and have got FFS (people will be more likely to overlook weirdness if you're beautiful).

And transmaxxing is the gender dysphoria. Person fails as a man in a number of dimension, and therefore gets dysphoria about the gender they can't perform. It is further enhanced by gender euphoria about being a woman. Confused gay men who transition to find a heterosexual partner on the other hand have no dysphoria, since they love seeing a man in the mirror and can perform the male role.

>>1437
1. Antonina was rather political and held controversial ideas.
2. People who broke eggs against her head were the Russian transphobes, who pretended to be her friend to bully her.
3. Antonina became rather russophobic. For example, she believed the problem is in the Russian people, not the government, so crooks like Navalny and Svetov wont solve anything, and just proclaim Russia is a good country now. So Antonina was afraid if Russia loses Ukraine war with Navalny coming to power and declare Russia LGBT friendly, so NL could deport her to Russia.

IIRC, Antonina left Russia, before the February 20.