i'm so retarded i posted this on the wrong site. should i just kms

>>16971
your picrel is fine dw about it
<chopped because testosterone rape
aren't you 17? you'll be right
<is it possible to change and become the type of person that achieves goals and people like, or is it too late?
watch a lot of movies and read books and do psychedelics and go to clubs and bars and shit, avoid opiates and amphetamines, be careful with mdma

>>16972
sounds good 👍
how did you even manage to post on endchan of all places instead of /tttt/

>>16975
the scariest part about being liked by people is that first you gotta learn what people dislike about you and you gotta learn it the hard way, but instead of locking up and becoming even more asocial off of it you have to look into yourself and fix those parts you know

and also absolutely do shrooms

>>16975
>do psychedelics and go to clubs and bars and shit
Интересный конечно совет

>>16975
not 17, 19, almost 20. but i started male puberty very early and unless i get enough money for FFS i think i will never really pass
>watch movies and read books and do psychedelics and go to clubs and bars
this is what i have been doing the past year or so instead of just rotting and it is somewhat more fulfilling but i feel i am still missing something. but maybe it will just come with time. i have made some cool and interesting friends i guess. maybe it was because i did not stay away from the opiates and amphetamines lol.
>>16976
this is crazy scary but i guess i am getting used to this also. mostly i am just worried that i am wasting my time talking to all of these people when i am not myself interesting (i.e. don't make art or really have any experiences to talk of). but perhaps people get interesting through other people and it is a trap to think i can solitarily become a person.

>>16982
>i started male puberty very early and unless i get enough money for FFS i think i will never really pass
let hrt do its thing like, i thought the same two years in but fat redistribution and stuff is actually very op
>maybe it was because i did not stay away from the opiates and amphetamines lol.
amphetamines make you a worse person outwardly while opiates slowly rot you internally ime.
>but perhaps people get interesting through other people and it is a trap to think i can solitarily become a person.
yep

Just to add up to all the stuff above -- median (not mean) age of starting MTF HRT in most scientific researches I've seen is 21 or 22. So, you actually started a few years ahead of an average trans woman! Personally, I'd give everything I have to at least have an option to start as early as you, but on top of all I've also had hypercaring parents.