Impulsive thoughts? what are we dealing with here?

I'd try to be transparent in that I have a lying issue.

>>10
I've been heavily autistic as long as I can remember, my mom knows but never got me diagnosed because she thinks I don't need it, my dad is autistic as well if I needed any more reassurance that I have it. Seeing and hearing things outside "this" reality has been normal for me ever since I was a small child. Static noises, people, entire lives just enter and leave my head without asking. And paranoia, paranoia is the worst. I constantly assume everyone and everything is trying to kill me and that I can't trust anyone. This is all topped off with an instinct to lie in order to avoid trouble, to the point where I don't even think to say what I really mean or feel or the truth in any way. This is a problem because I need to tell the counselor about it but I can't bring myself to not lie to her. I don't even realize I've lied until it's over, most times.

This is new so we upgraded?

if you want neetcoin then you have to go on and on about like legos or an obsession. learn linux and just explain the basics of terminal commands she will understand very quickly.

>>16
Imagine a board in which there isn't any flaming or shitposting or nonsense; just /r9k/ as it should be. That's an upgrade, right?

>>17
Legoes? I would have no problem talking about those, I love legoes. I have thousands of them.

>>20
I used to have tons of legos as a kid. I'd just build random stuff. Crunch them together. Make ugly "planes" and "bridges". Other things like that.

>>5
Counselors are trained and paid to keep a straight face for the duration of their session, no matter how weird the conversation would be in any other social setting. They've seen it all and are legally required (in first world countries) to keep their mouth shut. Unless you're sharing pedo or violent thoughts about harming yourself or another, that gets you vanned. Meet guy saying that he's a antromorphic teapot from Zeta Reticule sent to liberate coconuts? They've seen weirder.

>>22
I tried to make accurate models of fighter planes, trains, and star wars spaceships. I guess I could tell her about that. I really cannot function in society, I'm too weak to do manual labor, too autistic to do retail, and too dumb to do anything else. I can't even be a trucker or some other hikki-tier job because I can't get my license to save my life.

>>5
you have schizophrenia? you shouldn't even have to try to convince him/her.

but yeah, never open up to anyone.

>>254
Yeah, but I hide it. Also I don't really want to talk to the counselor about the different personas I interact with because I like some of them.

I'm in the exact same boat except I can't bring myself to talk to a psych doc because of my paranoia. How many personas/masks do you have in your head and are any of them violent? I've been having issues with a violent one trying to do some janky shit